Tuesday, June 28, 2011

God's Word

I have had blogs in the past where people have commented that they do not understand why God would allow their child to die and I can only share that God is who has held me up during these last few years. 

Today I came across something I wrote in my bible 3 months after DJ passed away and I wanted to share it with you all, especially for those of you that are struggling with God right now...

Matthew 7:21-28  "Not everyone who says to me, Lord, Lord will enter the kingdom of heaven, but only he who does the will of my Father who is in heaven.  Many will say to me on that day, Lord, Lord did we not prophesy in your name and in your name drive out demons and perform many miracles? Then I will tell them plainly, I never knew you.  Away from me, you evildoers.

Therefore everyone who hears these words of mine and puts them into practice is like a wise man who built his house on the rock.  The rain came down, the streams rose, and the winds blew and beat against that house, yet it did not fall, because it had its foundation on the rock.  But everyone who hears the words of mine and does not put them into practice is like a foolish man who built his house on sand.  The rain came down, the streams rose, and the winds blew and beat against that house, and it fell with a great crash.

When Jesus had finished saying these things, the crowds were amazed at his teaching because he taught as one who had authority and not as their teachers of the law.
What I found in my bible were these notes regarding this scripture: DJ's death is the rain and it is pouring over me, over us.  It is almost blinding.  Jesus is my foundation or I would have drowned.

If you are struggling with God, if you are wondering where He is-He is holding you up.  Maybe it doesn't feel like it but that is what faith is --believing in what we cannot see.

Do I wish God had kept DJ here? Absolutely.  Do I wish God would have protected DJ from the accident? Ofcourse.  Do we live in a fallen and broken world where accidents happen and no one is immune to the pain and struggles of them?  Yes.  Do I struggle with my Christian walk? Yes at times.  Do I believe that God has held me up these last 4 1/2 years since DJ passed away?  Without a doubt.  I would have drowned under the pain, I would not have survived the rain, the hail, the struggles.  Christ has held me up and continues to do so daily. 

If you are drowning under the weight of the death of your child look for that anchor, look for Christ to hold you up.  In my life there is nothing else that has held me up like Christ--if you are struggling seek Him and you will find Him. 

1 comment:

  1. Glad to find your site. A woman asked me the other day after learning of our loss, "Are you running to God, or away." Fortunately, I'm running in the right direction. Happy to know you are as well. Keep up the great work.