Hershey either has a terrible infection or cancer. They are running tests on her and she will be at the vet overnight. I am not ready to lose her yet. I don't want her to be in pain and I would not be selfish enough to keep her alive just for me but I am not ready to lose that connection yet.
I have memories of DJ walking her with my husband, I have memories of her leaving a dead half of a rabbit by his bed as a gift and him screaming at the top of his lungs for me to remove it. She created memories with him and she has kept a lot of that alive. I don't have the same kind of memories when I see his bike and certainly not his skateboard stuff. She is a living memory of DJ and it becomes another loss. I further loss that is attached to DJ.
There is so much fall out after a child dies and so much further loss--loss that can happen years later-6 years later for us with Hershey. I am hoping she will be fine but eventually it will happen and eventually it will trigger grief. Grief beyond the loss of her, grief attached to DJ.
I don't think people who have not lost a child understand how important the child's pet is to us. I know people who had their child's dog attend the funeral. There are families that have buried their child's dog alongside of their child's grave. I know people who had to take in their adult child's dogs.
I have no challenge today except that if you are not a bereaved parent you have some understanding for those of us that may act strange at times, or atleast act in a way YOU may think is strange. Lisa