There are many bereaved parents that still hear their child's voice. They hear them in their prayers, in a whisper maybe or in their dreams. Some parents receive signs from their child--there are pennies coming from nowhere, orbs floating about in pictures, feathers dropping from the heavens. Whatever your thought is on these signs never discredit them--if they give a parent or loved one peace then they are wonderful things.
I have to admit that I am jealous of this however. I do not hear DJ's voice--audibly or in a whisper. I have not seen DJ in my dreams more than three times in almost seven years. I have prayed for this in the past, I have asked God to let me see DJ in my dreams but I do not get this and I have come to accept this- after all, what else can I do??
Last night I asked God to let me dream about DJ, I am not sure why I felt I needed to see DJ exactly but I did ask. I woke up this morning with no dream of DJ, I woke up this morning not surprised and not disappointed because I have grown used to this after all.
Then I checked my phone and had a message from a young woman who I love like a daughter. She is DJ's best friend's sister and I have known this girl her entire life. On my phone was a lovely message about DJ. She proceeded to tell me that she was reading the Word and listening to some music. The words of the song were "all of heaven, all of creation, all the angels sing holy" and (her words) she said she could feel the heaven's army protecting her and could suddenly imagine DJ singing the song and telling her "You can do it". (he would tell his friends this all the time-great encourager).
So maybe, I don't get to hear DJ with my own ears or see him in my own dreams but he speaks to me through others and for that I am thankful. I do not think this is a coincidence, I don't believe in those. I believe in God's incidences and this is one of them. I asked to see DJ in my dreams but got a wonderful message from a wonderful girl. With that message I now have peace over my not getting to see DJ because God allows me to hear from him from other people. I finally get it and finally accept it.
I have to admit that I am jealous of this however. I do not hear DJ's voice--audibly or in a whisper. I have not seen DJ in my dreams more than three times in almost seven years. I have prayed for this in the past, I have asked God to let me see DJ in my dreams but I do not get this and I have come to accept this- after all, what else can I do??
Last night I asked God to let me dream about DJ, I am not sure why I felt I needed to see DJ exactly but I did ask. I woke up this morning with no dream of DJ, I woke up this morning not surprised and not disappointed because I have grown used to this after all.
Then I checked my phone and had a message from a young woman who I love like a daughter. She is DJ's best friend's sister and I have known this girl her entire life. On my phone was a lovely message about DJ. She proceeded to tell me that she was reading the Word and listening to some music. The words of the song were "all of heaven, all of creation, all the angels sing holy" and (her words) she said she could feel the heaven's army protecting her and could suddenly imagine DJ singing the song and telling her "You can do it". (he would tell his friends this all the time-great encourager).
So maybe, I don't get to hear DJ with my own ears or see him in my own dreams but he speaks to me through others and for that I am thankful. I do not think this is a coincidence, I don't believe in those. I believe in God's incidences and this is one of them. I asked to see DJ in my dreams but got a wonderful message from a wonderful girl. With that message I now have peace over my not getting to see DJ because God allows me to hear from him from other people. I finally get it and finally accept it.
You know, God works in such amazing ways. You will never know how I needed to read this this morning. Thank you for sharing your broken heart with me, a complete stranger except for the fact that my heart is broken like yours. Having a tough time this morning as the 5-year anniversary of my 30 yr. old son's Homegoing looms closer. God knows what we need, doesn't He? I needed a reminder that I am not alone in my grief, you needed a sign that He hears the cry of your heart. Thank you, sister. Blessings of Comfort and Peace to us both today as we wait for reunion day with our sons.....Vickie
ReplyDeleteVickie I am so glad that this reached you when you needed it! And you are right, strangers but sisters! God Bless you as the anniversary comes and goes! Lisa
DeleteWe're to be the body of Christ to each other. When that young girl listened to the prompting of the Holy Spirit, she was that voice you were crying out to hear. That's such a blessing. So many hurt from losing a loved one, but the loss of a child has to be the worst. I believe that deep desire to hear from a loved one, especially a child, is what leads many to believe in these other signs. However, that can be dangerous. My husband had a very close relationship with his father and his passing affected him deeply. When our daughter was born, we were in our livingroom one night and a balloon we received floated from her bedroom, up the hall and into the livingroom. It hovered there for a while and then floated back to her bedroom. It said, "Congratulations!" on it. My husband believed it was a message from his dad and this tapped into his fascination with ghost hunting. Satan used that to entice him into years of seeking to speak with the dead. I can't tell some of the evil things I've heard as he had opened our home to satan's demons. The Bible tells us that to be absent with the body is to be present with the Lord. As much as I would love to have my twin brother back here to see how much my son reminds me of him, I know he is in the presence of Jesus and would never want to come back to this sinful world. DJ is in Heaven and although you can't hear his voice now, you will one day. He will be there waiting to welcome you into Heaven. We're not home yet - my yearning for going home to Heaven grows stronger and stronger as I get older and as this world becomes darker pulling further away from God. I hope this is an encouragement to you. I've been so blessed with your transparency and reminders about cherishing each day with my own children. You are such a sweet, funny, joyful and loving person and I enjoy getting to know you more and more. God Bless you, Lisa.
ReplyDeleteTrisha, I understand your words completely. It can be a slippery road when we are in such grief! So many of us are so quick to look for other things when we are so sad but as you know we do need to keep our eyes on God and He will give us the nods from our children. I am sorry of the things you have gone through with your husband-keep praying, stay close to the Lord-be blessed, Lisa
DeleteI too feel jealous of those who have had signs, dreams, etc. Nolan had only been gone for 40 days....but I have been upset that I am not having dreams about Nolan.'. Why can't I have that? But I, like you, had a little taste of something on Thursday when I was having an especially rough moment. A woman I am acquainted with have me a big hug and proceeded to tell me that her daughter had taken Nolan poetry with her to school that day to share with her classmates. Her daughter had never met my son, but we handed out hissome of his poetry at his funeral. She really touched me that day when I needed it knowing his voice was being heard
ReplyDeleteJillybean-God does give us nods from our children and I am glad you received that! Often we just need to look and we will see them-keep your eyes on God and he will keep handing them to you--just not perhaps the way you or I want to. LIsa
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